And I know what a lot of people will say. I know how little sense it makes. I made the decision and I still don't know "why". I just know "that". And I'm getting to the other things I can do in the interim. Like write. And play music. And see my kid. Knowing what little I do about my future right now, getting to see her is more important to me than ever before.
I don't think I've ever fought with God about a prompting before. I'm positive I've never had one not truly make any sense to me whatsoever. So I fought it for the better part of a week. There apparently is only a certain degree of contending the Lord will tolerate before presenting you with the ultimatum of "follow me or don't, but figure it out now."
So, my Cherubs and Cerberuses (what's the plural on that?), my lessons I'm learning are two:
"Sometimes the Lord calms the wind, but most often he calms the sailor."
"Peace is not an absence of violence. It is an absence of fear."
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